Poetry Corner: "Outrunning the Void"

And now, for a possible semi-regular feature on the blog....I've been writing a lot more poetry lately. Mostly, it's been to work through my feelings, whether literally or (mostly) in metaphor. I've also been submitting my work to various literary magazines...with little luck.

So anything that doesn't get published professionally, I'm posting to the blog. At the very least, it will have a home amongst the other things that I write. Of course, I'm not quite sure that poetry fits amongst the more pop cultural and writing-oriented posts that you may be used to seeing....but this is worth a try.

And now, for the debut of...

Outrunning the Void

I move with intention

Outrunning the void

Fighting off despair

Hoping to heal

Knowing I won’t.

I seek attention

Wanting the focus

Feeling rejection;

Preemptive defeat

At every corner.

I frequently think of her;

Feeling the moment

Open to joy

Missing that moment

And its narcotic influence

Waning over time.

I feel time descending

Weighing my heart

Collapsing onto itself

Never relieved,

Always accelerating.

I think of her again

All smiles and light;

I wish for courage

To face rejection

Knowing she’ll always care

Yet resenting her for not caring enough.

This is my life:

A hard-earned defeat

At the end of a drawn-out war.

Wanting to cry, yet

Scared that I can’t.